christmas

grandparents just called, amazing how a short phone call can ruin my christmas spirit, really trying to not let it tho; they're moving back to japan, thank god

no more awkward phone calls pretending you didn't screw us over, phone calls from japan cost too much anyways hah; you didnt pay attention to us when dad was alive so why would you after he's dead go fuck yourselves, the occasional phone call on holidays hurts more than it heals; good job raising your youngest to become an alcoholic who steals his nieces and nephews inheritance, great missionary work. you were all so worried about going over there to "save" all the japanese people, that you neglected your own boys. they all came out pretty fucked up might i add. i mean most of them beat their wives, more than half your sons are alcoholics or some sort of addicts... you've done nothing to help us in the past or present, you won't in the future... honestly hope that whole side rots

merry christmas

really tho besides that little outburst today was awesome, i love my family and got some good stuff, christmas isn't as exciting as it used to be probably because i dont really care about "things" so much. theres not a whole lot i want or need, just stuff, filler, temporary happiness i don't need ya know? eh but having holiday dinner soon, relatives comming over and then idk probably waiting up for it to be my birthday, im turning 19 tomorrow which seems like a stupid age, but whatever cro-mags will be good and ill be seeing alota people i enjoy seeing so it'll be nice. jon joseph and his hare krishna back piece is something im looking forward to, hah yeah and death threat toooo

ok ok later