fragile

why as soon as i forget how fragile life is, God shoves it in my face
i don't need that. i don't need to be reminded, i actually liked going a few months almost a year without really dwelling on death. Kyle's Dad just passed away tonight, we think it was a heart attack. he was playing floor hockey and just collapsed...and i just saw him at the bonfire last week.... he was joking about me spilling the oil on my shoe... i have finals and portfolios to hand in, i want to go and be there for kyler, renae and the whole family. Kyle's one of my best friends, he's who i grew up with. One of few id do ANYTHING for, and why is it that i know i won't have the words to say, or know how to comfort him when he'll need it most, so i'm going home tomorrow or thursday idk to just go and see ky. going through this myself is different than a friend, id rather this happen to me all over cause atleast it was me hurting. knowing ky is hurting so bad has made me non stop cry and i never cry... damn it dude, there's really nothing else to say

I love you Ky, God's big arms are wrapped around you and your family
and i know its hard to understand God's purpose in this, honestly seems there isn't one

damn it