.009

i can't do for you what you can't do for yourself, and i can't be what you want me to be, by the time i become that, i'll be gone, we'll both be far from close. so this is me saying so long. i have never been good at standing idle by waiting for the small possibility you may need me in the time to come. you'll grow out of this, you've got a lot inside, but nothing i can offer you that you won't resist to no end. i refuse to compete for you, with you, for your attention, for your friendship. i don't know what you want or what you expect from a friend, but it shure as hell doesn't look like this. it is okay to see things close out, or come to an end, or even just to close in on it for a while. you don't feel like home anymore. so bye, later, i'll be seeing you, and when i do i'll know you far less than i do now.