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Ahh so i didn't remember today was my Dad's birthday until my mom said, "you're dad would have turned 54 today". weird because i knew it was my older brother's birthday, but it slipped my mind that the two of them always shared the november 7th birthday... Dad you didn't even make it to your 50th birthday, i know you would be feeling really old today. i miss ya a lot, and i really love you. just wish forgetting you/things about you didn't come with time. i wish i could preserve everything good and relive it by memory or in my dreams. please keep watching over us, we need you still. i hope God tells you about the good things that are going on in our lives, i know he wouldn't bother you with the bad up there. i don't know if you would be proud of me right now, i hope you would be. i've come a long way, i'm definitely a shell of the 14 year old k girl youd left behind, but i'd still let you take me out on movie/dinner dates, i'd still run out to your autobody shop when i needed help or just needed to cry. i don't cry so much anymore. sometimes i don't think i miss you enough, but it's been 5 years, i think you've helped us with that. have fun up there, i bet it's neat. i hope God tells you these sort of things. Happy Birthday Dad, God throws better birthday parties than us anyways.