summer

Thought i'd go home a star, instead i went home broke and tired

i got myself into this, and i can get myself out

cause i'm still not sleeping, thinking i've crawled home from worse than this

Josh graduated on this past friday, neat and now he's going to be joing me at Temple in the Fall. I'm happy cause i can maybe keep a better eye one him being at the same school.

Uganda is 90% happening in the Spring. Amani Baby Cottage said they would like me to come in January but they have to be positive they have room in the guest house and have to read over my recomendation letter.

Been working a lot of weekends, making pretty good money and saving most of it as well. Tomorrow my Mom, sister and myself are going to the Jersey shore, which I am so excited for. just to lay on the beach and get polish water ice.

Erika and I move into our new apartment at 19th & Girard on August 1st. Music fest is that same week so it will be hectic moving stuff and working a lot. looking forward to living there tho, can't wait for everyone to see it.
*** excited for TIH as well 4th year, but first time living in the city while it's happening. suicide file, VOD, Floorpunch, Blacklisted, etc.

July we go to Maryland, and actually am kinda siked for that too because I think all the families that used to go will be there the same time so it'll be good to see/hang with everyone.



As for life as a whole. right now it feels pretty good. We had a girls night last monday and Jo said to me, " you know kels, you've really turned your life around this past year, physically, mentally, emotionally. you're nothing like the Kelsey we knew 2 years ago". my reaction was, "Oh well, I still have a lot to work on". and as much I should take a compliment sometimes, I think it's hard for me because I am the only one who really knows the demons i still face, the things i am still struggling with and what i can't let go of. i know i have definitly made progress in many areas, and i'm greatful for that.
I want to work on talking less and listening more. I think i get too excited in things i am doing/plan on doing that it must seem i enjoy talking about myself, it has to. i don't want to come across like that, i just want to do the things i love and continue working on bettering myself in every area of my life. i've closed a lot of possibly promising doors with people, simply because i know i am not ready to love someone right. i'm always changing, always learning, thankful for what i've been given and trying to accept what's been taken.