plans

rediscovering things is awesome, this album will be my soundtrack to this fall, exactly what i need.

but it's still only stupid talk

in light of this weekend

had a lot of fun up in new york this weekend. china town bus was a little terrible but whatever. caught up with some people, good hanging out. adventures always are a bit refreshing. also breakdown was seriously awesome, jeff had his kids all there, ended with a world peace cover, neat. lots of iced coffee was consumed and i suffered for the cause on the ride home. monotony is not always a bad thing, something i need in some areas of my life to prevent me from straying away from what i want to achieve. it doesn't feel good a lot of the time, but it's safe, and safe is what i can afford for now. call me boring, right now i couldn't agree with you more.

static

4 months 4 months 4 months, just make it these 4 months

everyone feels like you

Barco's going away party tonight. weird she is really leaving for california. i'm stuck here for now, dodging the things that maybe i shouldn't and holding on to the things i most certainly know, no matter how tight of a grip, i will never be able to hold on to. well classes are alright. 18 credits is a lot, and i am feeling the work load. I get overwhelmed, and then it is okay. like anything in my life, if i learn to breahthe and take a few steps back i would act more according to reason than feeling. the initial reactionary kelsey would be replaced with a girl who's got a better hold on things, more control if you will. i would hopefully make better decisions that didn't hurt people, at least not as often. maybe i would like to learn, i mean really learn from past mistakes in the placement of priorities, the relationships i put so much into, the feelings that are only that and only temporary. move in the direction of reality. friendships for what they are or are not, and not what i would like them to be. keeping to myself and getting school work done/ letters mailed out for Uganda isn't all that bad, yes more classes is a direct cause of the more alone time, but in all honesty it isn't so bad sometimes. all together i just do not want to be stuck where i am at ever, positive change in the physical, and mental areas of my life, and loving the people who i know for a fact love me need to be top priority over "fun". sometimes when fun has become the center of my world i lose myself faster then i know. i betray myself and others in that i am not being true to my nature or my intentions. it is a constant thing isn't it?

we both forget all of the past and it's regret

i'm betting i'm not

all i've been listening to lately

http://www.mediafire.com/?bjjztbmyryj




http://www.mediafire.com/?bvvcbzojyyw

thanks justin

empty bottles, broken hearts

i was really into this umbrellas self titled in middle school, and i can not for the life of me find a way to download it now.


when i woke up today i started a dream journal, i don't know why, i guess just to keep track of these crazy dreams i've been having in the last few months. twice in the last month my dad has been in my dreams, strange but awesome, i haven't dreamt about him in over 2 years

on the safest ledge

"the person you are meant to be with should feel like home"

i like this concept, i really thought i felt at home, i want to feel at home again even if it's for little bits at a time.

Thick´-head`ed

a.1.Having a thick skull; stupid.